better days

this is just gonna be a quickie post, sorry. i want to go to bed early tonight. mostly because i feel all sick and blah. so yeah. that's what's up. i just ate a bowl of cookies and creme ice cream and loved it. so delicious. also, you know how i wrote about that missing check? well i found it! so praise the lord for that one. not so much praising the fact that my nanny job is basically nonexistent now because the mom is quitting her job so she won't need me to watch the kids much. unless she gets hired somewhere else real soon. doubtful.
i spent a good chunk of my evening sorting through every letter from friends that i've saved, sorting them by who sent them, reading some along the way. it was interesting to read some and catch new perspective on things people wrote to me once that still can apply to me now. it did make me miss some of my friends a lot and make me a little sad, but i think that's also me feeling crummy because my nose has been running ALL freakin' day and i'm all lethargic. oooh big word. =) i've decided that despite the fact that the vast majority of my life, i've always wanted better friends or well that sounds bad. more like i've just wanted to be better friends with the ones i know or whatever. despite that i get down on myself for thinking i'm not interesting or fun enough that people will initiate hanging out with me and not me initiating hanging out with them. despite the fact that i can't go back in time and fix friendships lost. despite my worldly desires, God is the ultimate friend and provider. He knows what He's doing and what He's doing for me is just right, even if I don't particularly care for how it's going.
I was listening to KLove as I was driving to and from taking care of the dog I'm dogsitting this week and the song "Blessed Be Your Name" came on and I was like, yes. No matter what, I can still continue to say blessed be Your name because God is great, God is in control, and God loves ME!
(excuse my lack of proper capitalization throughout the majority of this blog. feeling lazy. )

(so much for going to bed earlier. but it's official! I can swallow pills with just water! This is great. You don't even know.)